Showing posts with label Kilted_Knight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Kilted_Knight. Show all posts

Thursday, December 08, 2011

The drama of poly: Day 8

Today is Day 8 of having an #adventblog. Counting down the days until Christmas. I still need to do my Christmas cards as well as finish my shopping. I also need to figure out what I am going to bake.

There has been more drama with the poly in the last 48 hours than all year. I've decided to write some feelings out. I didn't get much sleep last night because I was up late talking to Anakin about it. We have been doing the poly dance since 1997. We opened up our marriage and started dated and playing with others.

There have been some really great times. Naughty adventures and 3-somes with different people. Unfortunately there has been a lot of drama which came with it. Drama like we've had in the last 48 hours.

There has been some problems going on with Irish Boy and I for a while now. Things haven't been very good. It's very difficult when we live far apart and don't drive. We are not able to see each other. This is also a busy time of year for us both. There was a lot of heated texts between us. We are going to try to be friends.

I went on a coffee date on Monday. I had no idea that going on that date would cause so much drama! I'm not sure what to think about Kilted_Knight either. Things didn't go very well. I wish he would have been more honest with me. It turns out that he has dated and played with several other people that I know.

The Vancouver bdsm community is very small. Everyone seems to know everyone. One of the biggest reasons I don't like going to events is because of running into ex's and people from the past. There were some people who didn't like me. I had no idea that Kilted_Knight dated and played with one of my close twitter/blogger friends. I wish he would have told me. I might have gone for coffee but it wouldn't have gone any farther.

I don't like to date guys who have dated/fucked/played with my friends. I found out the next day about it and some other things came out too. It doesn't look very good. Unfortunately someone else (from my past) got involved in this whole situation. The whole thing wound up into a very big mess.

It's made me very reluctant to want to date again. It never seems to go well. The dates are wonderful but the drama afterwords is awful. It's stressed me out a lot too. We've had to take a break with the poly. I'm really not sure what will happen in 2012. The journey will continue though. I'm moving forward. Lessons learned. I don't regret any of my poly experiences. All of them have taught me a life lesson.

I had a quickie with Anakin after we had a big talk about it all. It was unexpected and sudden. He told me to spread my legs and fucked me roughly. He used his hand to make me cum for Him. Yum! I usually need my toys but it was more personal to have his fingers. It was a nice start to the day. I'm hoping there will be a less drama today. Today is another day...

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

A break from the poly: Day 6

Today is Day 6 of having an #adventblog. Counting down the days until Christmas. Today has been a pretty stressful day so far. I've had a lot of drama going on with different people. I'd really not like to get into what's happened with Kilted_Knight or Irish Boy. Some people have asked me what's going on and I'd like to leave that private. It's just very complicated trying to balance 3 different guys right now. It's a lot to deal with.

I want to make it clear that they are both really great guys. I've enjoyed my coffee date with Kilted_knight. I've had a few dates with Irish Boy. It's been a lot of fun but...this morning wasn't. I had to take an adivan because it felt like I was having a panic attack.

I talked to Anakin and he wants me to focus on the holidays and Him right now. He's the Boss and His final decision is the law. I obey Him so I'm going to be taking a break from the poly. Anakin said we can talk about it more in the New year. So we'll see where things go. I plan to focus all of my energy and time onto Master. He's got a long list of things for me to do before Christmas. I'm going to be very busy the next few weeks. I feel very domestic and want to please the Boss. :)

I hope that I can still be friends with both Kilted_Knight and Irish Boy. Thank you both for giving me a lot of reasons to smile about the poly this year. I really enjoyed my dates with both of you.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala

Monday, December 05, 2011

Meeting Kilted Knight for coffee: Day 5

Today is Day 5 of having an #adventblog. Counting down the days towards Christmas. You can still join us by doing an advent blog. Check out Mija's blog for all the information.

It's been a pretty good Monday today. I started off the day with a quickie with Anakin. I had planned to use my Hitachi and other stuff but got a text from a friend asking to get together and meet for the first time. I've been chatting with @Kilted_Knight for a while now. He was going to be in the area and asked to meet me for a coffee. I always get so nervous when I first meet someone. I admit that I can be very shy the first time you meet me.

We met at the Wired Monk. Kilted_knight is very handsome and knows how to flirt very well. I really enjoyed our coffee and getting to know each other. I got a few surprises. It's a very small world. He knew who my Dad is!!!! I guess it isn't that big of a surprise considering my Dad was very well known but still...I couldn't believe it! We also knew a lot of the same people on twitter and through the Vancouver bdsm community. We share a lot of the same interests as well.

I lost track of time while talking with him. We did a lot of flirting and there was even some kissing and hair pulling too. *grins* I admit that I was very shy about it all though. There is no doubt in my mind that he's a Dominant. I could feel a lot of Dominant energy from him and he made me blush a lot. I really enjoying meeting him today.

I know we will be good friends. We did discuss doing some playing sometime and getting to know each other more. I'd really like that. He's very interesting and handsome and a really fun guy to be around. He's also got a really wicked sense of humor. I really enjoyed having coffee with him today. :) You can follow him on twitter as Kilted_Knight. He's also on Fetlife. I'm sure I'll be blogging more about him as I get to know him more.

May the force be with you all!!

~padme amidala